Lately I’ve been feeling extremely frazzled and scattered. I think the best word to use is unsettled.
This isn’t surprising as in the past few weeks I’ve been traveling every weekend, left one job, and started another. I’ve left people, met people, moved desks, started a new commute, learned new systems, new names, new acronyms, new ways of communicating, and I haven’t left any time to check in with myself and prioritize the things that keep me grounded.
I was reading Jess Lively’s blog last week and while it wasn’t one thing she said in particular, I latched on to the idea of creating time in my day for specific intentions. Largely this is going to focus on being present and connected with myself.
I can be fairly efficient at multi-tasking. I’m not sure if this is a blessing or a curse.
I email and gchat and work on a deliverable and take a phone call and text all at the same time. I’m doing them but I’m not really present in any of them. Probably not the best way to handle my business – personal or professional!
So what would it look like if I had time where I was only doing one thing? The answer is I’m not sure. But I am hoping that it would make me feel less frazzled.
My intention around time going forward is to be present in it and not wish it away. I am also going to dedicate two times a day that I will attempt to spend time with/on/around/dedicated to myself.
What does this look like?
Each day I have to leave my apartment at 8am to drive to work. I leave the office at 5:30pm each evening.
So while I’m not left with much time. I’m thinking of parsing it out as follows: 7am wake up and have 20 minutes of me time. What a concept right? 20 minutes to read, have tea, sit by the window, wake up slowly, just be with myself and not be rushing. It sounds lovely. But the key here is that I’m really going to need to get up and not sleep through that time for meditation.
Then from 5:30-6:30pm each day I’m going to exercise. This cannot be that hard. I’ve been looking for gyms in the area or a yoga class or… and then I realized, there is a gym in my building. I like the elliptical. And that way, I don’t have to drive anywhere. Yes. Brilliant. The key there is going to be really pushing myself to actually go every day. Not my strong suit. But I’m going to try!