Oh October, I don’t know if I’m ready for you!
Ever since I experienced my first October in New York, I have had a special feeling about the month (even more than I did before). I survived my first miserable month in Manhattan and on October first I declared that “OCTOBER!!!!” was going to be the best month ever for me, because it had to be better than September. (Fun fact: my dear friend Kate and I still text OCTOBER!!!! to each other on the first and throughout the month!) It just became this mantra for a fresh start and things improving. A nun on the street… OCTOBER! A pumpkin spice latte… OCTOBER! Easy commute home… OCTOBER!
…You get the idea. 😉
So, October is here and while I would like to exclaim the month’s name loudly and with glee, I am a little off this month, and that’s ok. October can be about real life too and that is where I’m going to focus my goals this month… on living the best life I can right where I am. One day at a time.
There are many things I’m excited about this month. I turn 30 on the 16th and this milestone birthday is one that I’ve been looking forward to celebrating. I am proud of all I’ve accomplished in my 20’s and thrilled to see what joys and challenges this new decade will bring me. To celebrate, Josh has planned a surprise birthday trip for me and we’re taking a week off of work! That in itself is amazing! Halloween is this month and that is my favorite holiday – dressing up and eating candy? YES PLEASE! And fall in Virginia is always a gorgeous time to watch the leaves change and the weather turn a bit more crisp.
There are also some things that, though they are part of life, will be hard this month. I want to be honest with how I’m feeling and allow myself to be human (both when happy and when sad). My Grandpa, who I grew up with and love beyond words, is not doing well. He has lived an amazing life and is so treasured by me, our family and all of the lives he has touched, but his body is starting to shut down on him. I am so blessed that he lives in Northern Virginia and I am working to soak up as much time with him as possible and to just be there with him and for him. He is not as with it as he once was and is not aware of this final chapter. In the past two weeks as we have come to this realization, it has been really hard. I know it will continue to be hard and while the timing isn’t ideal, this is reality. Life is about joys and about sorrows and they are all necessary to feel.
This October may not be what I had originally envisioned–big vacations and celebrations of me all month long. Instead, it may bring other gifts and challenges, but I know that I will spend it one day at a time with my family and friends and those whom I love deeply. And that will make it a good and worthy month full of living.
Revisiting September Goals
-Deepen my daily prayerReading Blessed Is She every morning (or at least by the end of the day!)
-Cultivate a positive relationship with exerciseI’m going to cross this off though it’s something I’ll continue to work on because I came to a big realization this month. I went for a run and I was feeling anxious to the max. I kept asking myself, what should I do, what should I do? And the answer that came was, “Stop punishing yourself.” [sigh of relief] Right? This applies to so much in my life but for exercise specifically, when I work out – great! When I don’t… that’s ok. Huge. 🙂
-Get at least 2 content pieces ready for my big projectAgain crossing this off but I made progress in a different way. No content pieces but did a lot of leg work, I hope to keep up the momentum!
-Make a video – Didn’t get to it but took a lot of pictures!
-Review our annual credit reports together – Pushing this to this month too
-Schedule my annual physical / check-up – Ok I intentionally put this one off, whoops.
-Start to tell our wedding story – I still haven’t found the words to start this one yet. I’m not sure that October will be the month for it given everything else. I’m going to choose to be gentle with myself on this and when it happens it will happen. 🙂
For goals, I have many I’d like to accomplish and I’m going to work on them. Whatever doesn’t get done, I’ll revisit in November or reprioritize as I go. That’s the beauty of it!
-Review our annual credit reports together
-Schedule and complete my annual physical / check-up
-Celebrate my 30th birthday joyfully (without lamenting getting older but celebrating the opportunity to do so!)
-Carve a pumpkin / Watch Hocus Pocus (October/Halloween tradition!)
-Be with Grandpa
-Say no / simplify
What are your goals this month?
Pictures from my favorite ever Pumpkin Bread recipe! I don’t always make them from literal pumpkins but they are always delicious.