There is something about transitions that makes me a little sad. The idea of something you enjoy or have worked hard to complete ending creates a kind of finality that doesn’t sit well with me. It’s funny though, because even those things that are stressful to start make me feel this way when they end.
For the past month and a half, I’ve been working on and performing in a concert of Rodgers and Hammerstein and Andrew Lloyd Webber songs. This little show started out as a major source of stress for me. Involving 10 seasoned performers in the area, our rehearsals were a little lackadaisical at first. We each had two or three solos and then two group numbers. We thought it would be super easy to learn however, those group numbers each had six-part harmonies. Yikes.
By the time we got to opening night, I was scared out of my mind. I had only heard my songs with the orchestra twice and I was terrified I was going to forget the words. I wouldn’t even let Josh come to opening – I was that nervous.
But during the run of our performances, something magical happened (it almost always does in a show) and we hit our stride. I became more confident in my numbers and worried less back stage. The cast started to bond and I learned about the new friends with whom I was working. Most importantly, I remembered what a gift it is to sing, to be a part of a show and have the blessing of being able to perform and do what I love.
The show closed on Sunday and after all the initial stress, I am very proud of how it turned out. I can only hope that I am able to sing with these talented people again soon.