YOU’VE GOT TO START SOMEWHERE
Truth: I’ve started three blogs before this one.
Additional truth: None of them got more than one or two posts.
For me this is just one of those thoughts – START A BLOG – that just isn’t going away. It just keeps screaming at me. I feel stuck because I know I need to suck it up and do it, but I’m pulled in so many different directions that I’m not quite sure where to begin.
I care about myriad things that I feel like I could write about:
- Healthy eating
- Maintaining healthy relationships
- Career advice
- Staying grounded
- Setting and achieving goals
But then I look at this list and think. That is bologna! I don’t know anything about any of those things.
Here is what I do know. I know that I am blessed. I have my health and love and support and many opportunities (whether I want them or not). I know that I want to live a happy life in which I savor each moment and quit cramming so much into my days that I miss what I’m actually doing.
In high school I used to do my homework for one class in another class so I could study my lines for the school play in the first class. I was so over committed.
I am so over committed.
And I’ve liked that for my brief 26 years on this earth. But I’m starting to get tired and frazzled with running around like a maniac.
I am going to make a goal to write.Write it all down so I don’t miss it. And hopefully slow down and reflect while I’m writing.
This summer is going to be a time of transition for me. I can just feel it in my bones. Better capture it, understand it, hash through it, and never forget that I’m living a beautiful life.
I was reading Mastin Kipp’s blog The Daily Love (I am too scared to link to this yet because my blog is basically nonexistent and I don’t want him finding and judging me…. don’t you judge me for this right now!) and he said something that struck me. Made me gasp at my computer.
Let go of the outcome. Allow yourself to be pulled by grace.
It hasn’t left me yet. It’s even on my new and improved desk to remind me.
|new desk space. for working. and thinking. and i hope i hope i hope blogging.
ps. favorite part of this picture is my reflection in my peace picture from peru
Just let go. Have faith. In me. In everything. Something good is coming.
I don’t intend to miss a single moment of it.