Letting go of control is extremely hard for me to do. Lately
I’ve been feeling this consistent feeling that I need to surrender. Just let
go. I’ve been doing a lot of praying and reading and letting myself just think
through it all, but I must admit I don’t have the answer yet.
any given situation. As I mentioned last weekend, one of my worst traits is
that I’m relentless until I get my own way.
false sense of power. Am I really in control? Am I really able to control my
own situation? Or fix the problems of myself and others?
answer is no. I am not able to control every situation in my life.
might understand my point and those who are not will likely argue it. I believe
that I have the free will to make positive decisions and work hard and treat
others well and argue my point so that it resonates with someone else. I have
the power over my own actions and I can choose to be proactive.
reminder that I am not in control of everything. I am both terrified and
comforted by this thought—How wonderful to be able to rely on God as a loving
and guiding presence in my life but how terrifying to think that I don’t have
the ultimate say in what happens to me.
rationally understand that things can happen in life that we cannot control. It’s
easy to think of examples of disease, trauma, death, etc. But it’s not only bad…
what about falling in love with someone unexpected, having a child, or being
accepted to the school of your dreams. There are myriad beautiful things that
happen to us every day without our controlling them.
the answers. I do not know how to gently surrender to the will of God while
still being proactive in my own choices. But I am working on it.
control, I am being led on a path of unexpected blessings.
Prayers. I too thank God that he didn’t grant my prayers to marry (any of)
my former crush(es)! And that’s just one example of a disappointment in my life
– that I was trying to control – turning into a huge gift!
stronger that with patient surrender and proactive choices, I just might find that
not in control of every aspect of my life. It also takes a heaping dose of humility.