I think I’ve mentioned that I have a GREAT feeling about
2013. I don’t know why but I think it’s going to be a slam dunk year. Something
about the air feels like everything is coming into place in a way that I never
thought was possible. I’ve been living in that wind of change and possibility.
so far it’s also been incredibly busy / strange / overwhelming due to the
following list of things:
had to happen with #2 and #3 and #4 were inevitable as my lease was up.
and this little blog in 2013. I wanted to write every day and create a space
for myself. I haven’t done that. I’ll admit it to you and myself. At first, I
thought, “I’ll just write a bunch of posts and backdate them so they are all
there and I don’t miss a day.”
through many life changes. That is a good thing. And it is ok that I didn’t get
to start my blog yet. I’ll just start it now.
one minute ago), this year I am going to be gentle with myself and be honest
about what I can and cannot accomplish. I cannot do everything. I do not have
to. I am going to let go of being ‘perfect’ at everything, because let’s get
real, being perfect is only an illusion anyway. No one is perfect. I am not
perfect. I am exactly how I am meant to be. I am interesting, opinioned,
impatient, detail-oriented, loving, laughing, and full of excuses to
procrastinate. And that is wonderful. I am grace. And I will continue to remind
myself of that every day.
Singing in the choir brings me joy. Like a million tiny rays
of sunshine beam out of my face when I do it. So why wouldn’t I do it every
week you ask? Great question. I don’t know. Last fall when I was doing Legally
Blonde: The Musical, I just didn’t have time and then I got lazy and didn’t
want to go to mass early. But this year is different. I will make it my
priority on Sunday to be there early to practice and to praise Him through
song. Hello tiny rays of sunshine, my face missed you.
In 2013 I will allow myself to have down time. I will no
longer proclaim that I cannot relax. I will say with confidence that I relish
my time with my tea on the couch or laying around reading and not doing
anything else at the same time. I am excited to relax. To breathe. To slow
down. To savor each moment. Each. Single. One.
I bet you guessed what this goal is about: this blog. I
first wanted to create my own blog in February of 2012. I did lots of proactive
things like get a blog name, and twitter account. And then I wrote a few posts,
got really overwhelmed that it wasn’t as perfect as the blogs I read that have
been around for four years and gave up. I’ve come back to it a few times with crippling
resolutions to write every day of the week. Or post every morning before work.
Or 25 times a month or I fail. Needless to say, each time I have not met the
ridiculous standards I imposed on myself.
In 2013 I will say “no thank you” to standards or metrics.
This blog is a place of thoughtful reflection and joyful sharing. I will write
here. That is what I am promising you and myself. Every entry will be a
success. Especially this one of forgiveness and acceptance.
I have been in a pretty healthy eating routine since Legally
Blonde. I eat foods that make me feel good: proteins, dairy, veggies, and
fruits. I love bread but I feel better when eating it in moderation. I will
excitedly continue my healthy eating habits in 2013 and continue to exercise my
body and take that time for myself.
I will remember every day that I have a right to be here
exactly as I am. Instead of getting caught up in accomplishments or life plans
or salary adjustments or work I will praise myself for being alive and good
each day. I will give myself time to rest. I will get 8 hours of sleep as often
as I can. I will be kind to myself as I am kind to others. I will praise myself
for accomplishments. And if I do not accomplish something in the way that I
wanted I will be gentle with myself and remind myself that I can try again if I
Of these two things I am sure. When trying times come I will remember that I am
not alone. Win!